"In the morning, O LORD, You will hear my voice; In the morning I will order my prayer to You and eagerly watch." (Psalm 5:3)
The Lord was so kind to me this morning to show me the flip side of His favor as He took me to Psalm 5. I read "For it is You who blesses the righteous man, O LORD, You surround him with favor as with a shield" (Psalm 5:12)
You see I had rather have the favor of God and be hated by the world than be loved by the world and be without the favor of God. The truth is you can't have both the favor of God and the favor of the world. I choose the favor of God no matter what the world may throw at me. I know that the favor of God is as a shield and all this world can do is destroy my flesh and what is seen. It cannot touch my spirit or the eternal unseens that are mine in Christ. I will persevere and hold fast to the promises of my God that I find in His Word. Oh what treasures they are!
After spending the beginning of my morning telling God all that was on my mind and pouring out my frustrations and my fears and reminding Him of certain situations that were going on. I said "Amen" and then layed my head on my Bible and prayed that God would sanctify me by His truth, His Word is truth. (Yes I will even try osmosis to get all of God's Word firmly established in my mind and heart and soul) I then begin to read over Isaiah 40 and am once again reminded of the greatness of my God. I read "Who has directed the Spirit of the LORD, or as His counselor has informed Him?" Isaiah 40:13.
At this point I shake my head and smile up at the beautiful blue sky dusted with the white swirls and puff of clouds of my Creator God and I say to Him, "Oh Father, I love You." I say this because I am overwhelmed with the patience of my God. How patient He is with me. His lovingkindness endures forever. I read this particular verse in Isaiah and it hit me how often I come to God to "inform" Him of what is going on. Coming to Him as though He somehow has missed this situation or has forgotten that this certain thing was going on and He needed me to give Him a heads up.
"Oh by the way Everlasting God, the LORD, Creator of the ends of the earth have you forgotten me...?"
"Why do you say, O Nicole, my way is hidden from the LORD and the justice do me escapes the notice of my God?"
Yep, face to face with Isaiah 40:27-28.
Head down, but leaned into the everlastingly loving, kind, patient chest of my God.
And I can almost feel His kiss on the top of my forehead as He looks deep into my heart and says "those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary. Do not go down to Egypt for help, I am your very present help in times of trouble"
Oh Father, thank You for Your word...