I am about 15 minutes from jumping in the shower and getting ready and heading to the hospital to go through another mammogram and then follow the mammogram with an ultrasound.
Possibly in less than 12hrs I will know if this situation is behind me... or if this is just beginning.
It has indeed, as a friend described it, been "a cloud hanging over me." I know that God is sovereign. I know that He is in control and I know that He already knows what the results of these tests will be, but nevertheless, the fact that I am clueless creates the cloud.
I have been a little scattered this week, more than usual, I am at norm always a little scattered. So it's been a week with a report like scattered clouds with a chance of approaching storms...
It's been a strange, at peace but not, kind of week.
I stand in the peace of my God that is mine by the grace of my God through my faith in Jesus Christ... this peace that surpasses all understanding. It's so great that we don't have to understand the peace of God to rest in it.
I received a text from my husband this morning that just placed me in perfect peace. He told me that he had prayed over me until he fell asleep, began again when he woke up, and he prayed for me all the way to work, and was praying for me still, and if I needed him I was to call and he would leave work to come and be with me.
There just is nothing like knowing your husband is praying over you. The power of a praying husband brings a peace like no other can, not the pastor, not the Sunday school teacher, not the CBN prayer line...
"Husbands, love your wives,
just as Christ also loved the church
and gave Himself up for her,
so that He might sanctify her,
having cleansed her
by the washing of water with the word"